05 October 2010 Bittersweet

            Today I got my design project back! I was really proud of how it turned out because I spent a lot of time focusing on the little details. When Mrs. Rubay was handing back our projects, she stopped when mine came up to show the whole class. She was surprised I was able to pull it off because the front part of the design is quite complicated with another layer hanging off from the side. I’m surprise too since I never really learned how to use a sewing machine. I was so shocked to see that I got an A+ on the project! I was expecting an A or A- but an A+? For the rest of the school day, I had a huge smile on my face! I couldn’t help it! Especially in Math class where Jennifer noticed! She was really proud of me when I told her about my design. She even joked about me becoming a fashion designer and asked for my autograph! That silly girl!

            Everything was going wonderful until I got home. I was really excited to show my mom my grade for my project hoping that she’ll become more open to me drawing and designing but I was wrong. My mom didn’t have a smile on her face, but a frown instead. She stared at me for a while in silence until I had to break the silence by asking her if she was proud of me. After a long pause, she crumpled the paper with my grade and told me to focus on my other subjects more because those are going to be more useful for me when I become a doctor. This really tipped me off because I never said I wanted to be a doctor! All the blood and flesh scares me! How does she expect me to become something I have no interest in? I know that it was her dream to be a doctor when she was little, but her family couldn’t afford to pay for her education. However, she pushes me to become a doctor because society is always going to need doctors and they make a lot of money. I think money is the biggest reason my mom wants me to become a doctor...I don’t really know what I want to do anymore…

--Mackenzie